Don't Wanna Lose You Now(short story)

It was a long day I though.Ijust got home from work.I was in the recording studio recording the new album due out in October.I went home to my girlfriend Mary(that's me Jess aka Carter)She was sitting on the couch playing N64(that's a surprise..lol)"Hello Mary.Did ya miss me?"I said giving her a kiss."Yea you bet I did"She said back."Bri and LeighAnnw said that they might be coming over later on"I said."Oh cool! what time?"She said getting all exicted."I dunno they didn't say"I said heading up the stairs.I got up there and turned on "Bad Touch"(lol...Dante it's your fave song...don't ask why..) by the Bloodhound Gang.I fed the dogs and checked the messages.My mom called she wanted to know when she could meet Mary.I didn't call her back I thought it was too late."Nick!"I head someone yelling at me fom downstairs."Yea..."I yelled back."Brian and LeighAnne are here." "Okay I'll be right down"I said as I came walking down.When I got down there Brian and LeighAnne were getting ready to play N64 with Mary(I thought they would have played some basketball..lol)"Yo Bri what's up?"I said."Nothing much.I just saw you not to long ago"He said."I knew that!" I said beginging to laugh."Well anyway me and LeighAnne wanted to know if you two wanted to go out and party tonight."Bri said."Yea sure.U guess we can go."I said sounding a little concered."Cool! Let's go"LeighAnne said in a hurry."Hold on a sec.Let me get ready"Mary said fixing her hair."It's okay Mary come on"I said."Alright"
We all went into sepreate cars.Me and Mary went into the durango(I didn't want to crash the prowler if you haven't read as long as you love me..i love the car man..) Brian and LeighAnne went into the blue beamer(it's a pretty car)
When we arrived at the club.Brian and LeighAnne went off dancing.Me and Mary stayed back drinking(bad me and Nick..lol)It was almost 2 am.Me and Mary went home.I was drunk as hell(oh no) and Mary had already passed out.She was in the passanger seat.I tried to control the car,but I couldn't see anything in front of me.I rammed into another car.I was alright,but Mary wasn't.I called Brian's cell phone(I have no idea why).They were down here asap.We took her to the hospital.I told them that I was driving drunk and wasn't thinking right.The doctor had came into the waiting room."Who here is Nick?"he said."I am"I said getting up from the chair."Well your girlfriend Mary is okay,but she might be pregant.We don't know that for sure until we run some more tests"He said."Oh okay."I said feeling happy now that I know she's okay."If you want you can go see her now."he said.Me,Brian,and LeighAnne all went into the room.She was laying there so sweet and innocent."Hello sweetie(isn't Nick sweet?)"I said giving her a kiss on the forehead."Hello Nick...what did the doctor say?"She said looking up at me."Well he said you are okay,but you might be pregant."I said."Oh..."she mummbled and looked down at her stomache."I wanna support you all the way.I just wanna know who?"I said."You don't remember?"She said."No I don't."I said(bad Nicky bad..lol."It was about 2 months ago.it was right after the "Into The Millennium Tour"."She said trying to sit up."Oh..."I said."Nick?"she said."Yes"."I love you"She said is so sweetly I just wanted to kiss her(why didn't you?)"I love you too."I said giving her a kiss(awww)The doctor than came back in."Nick I need to talk to you for a sec."he said."Alright I'll be right there.Mary I'll be right back love ya.Bri come with me."I said grabbing his shirt.We went out into the hall."What did ya want doc?I said."Well I have some bad news.We did some more testing.She isn't pregant,but she also isn't going to live"He said."Why?" I said looking at the doctor."Well she was bleeding in the brain and we couldn't stop it."he said."How long will she live?"I said havinf tears develope."I am guessing 1 or 2 hours maybe even less.I began to cry.I couldn't live without her in my life.Brian also started to cry.He loved her like a sister.(they're crying over me?? awww how sweet.lol)We went back into the room where Mary was.Brian told LeighAnne.She also was crying.I looked down at her.She was getting weaker by the minute.I went up to her ear and said"I love you and I always will(aww Nick is so sweet)." She whispered back"I love you to Nick"Those were the last words that I would hear come from her mouth.Only if I wasn't a dumbass and drove the car while I was drunk this never would have happened.I started singing"I've got this feeling you're not going to stay it's buring within me.The fear of losing of slipping away.It just keeps getting closer baby.whatever reason to leave that I've had.my place is always beside you and i wish that I didn't need you so bad you're face just won't go away".I looked back down at her.She stopped breathing.The montor went off.She died.I cried even more than I already was.Brian and LeighAnne were too.They drove me home.I couldn't sleep.It wasn't the same without her here with me.All the fanz found out.They felt sorry for me and they were very supportive(would you be?)

~*~A year later~*~
It has been a year later since everything that has happened.I visited Mary's grave today.I told her what has been going on with The Backstreet Boys.I also have been dating off and on.I never really met anyone that I loved enough to marry.I never had any kids either(aww poor Nick) I still think about Mary everyday.Brian and LeighAnne still think and pray for her.I never went partying or drinking again.I promised myself that I wouldn't.I learned my lesson.And I'll never do it again.Right before I left.I put a note that I wrote to Mary it read:

Dear Mary,

I am sorry that this had to happen.I always have loved you and you know that.I just wanted to apologize for drving so stupidly.Since we have never had any kids or ever got married I still think about how much fun it would have been.Well I love you and I miss you.

Luv,
Nick

(AUTHORS NOTE:

YOU PROBALY ARE CRYING NOW HUH?? I KNOW SAD STORY.I WROTE IT ALL BY MYSELF.IF YOU WANNA GIVE ME FEEDBACK PLEASE DO @ FRACKSGRL0@BACKSTREETBOYS.COM OR NICK_BRIAN_KORB@HOTMAIL.COM
THANZ!LUV, ~*~CARTER~*~